4 days in...

I'm still engaged...;o) Going ring shopping today and I am dead excited. Last night went out for a couple of drinks with a few close girls and it was such good fun to catch up with them. There are so many thoughts and emotions running around inside of me at the moment it's terrbibly crazy. I think my main concern is that in all the wedding planning I'll forget to focus on actually thinking about marriage. I so want the day to be amazing but I don't want to loose my focus on what is to follow. And how do you prepare yourself best for such an adventure as life long marriage?! If I think about how much I have changed in the last 27 years, I can't imagine what I'll be like in another 27. I think even though that thought can be a bit terrifying there is a real positive about it. In 27 years I will know my husband inside and out and he me, I will be able to have someone there who has closely watched the good and the ugly. I'm hoping and praying that in 27 years we will be more in love with each other then now, that we will know others in a deeper way and that we will both be at peace with Jesus.

On another note I have decided to make my blog a bit of a place of thinking about Jesus as well as just updates so excuse if I ramble, but hey it's my blog, its purpose is really to keep me a bit more accountable to actually having quiet times with him. This morning I did and I read a passage in http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Mark%2011:27-12:11;&version=31;; A simple passage really, but what hit me was how Jesus handled the way the Pharisees wanted him to defend his identity and his actions. He didn't get all defensive but came back with a question. A question which actually meant that he was saying "What right do you have to question my identity and my actions" It blew me over because that is not how I react when people question my relationship with Jesus or my actions (godly ones obviously). But I should far more respond in that way, because I know who I am in Jesus and I know what he wants from me. Our identity as Christians is so safe that we can have the same attitude to doubters of our identity. In Jesus I have a cornerstone who I don't have to defend. So this morning I also thought that that goes a bit further, in that it helps us move on from fears. If we know our identity and have our security in Jesus we can truly move on rather then returning to insecurities and fears. What amazing freedom we have.