Beauty

Friends have finally convinced me to read Captivating by J and Stasi Elderidge (can't remember the guys name but he rode Wild at heart) and so far so good. It is awakening in me that realisation that it is good to be a woman. It is good to want to be beautiful inside and out. It's a lesson God taught me through Americans before and I think I have forgotten it a little. Feeling guilty for wanting to be feminine and wanting to follow fashion. I don't mean spending all my hard earned cash on thousands of shoes but enjoying clothes, make up. And also enjoying that feeling it can give you of feminity. And also enjoying and relishing in the fact that as a woman I oozes beauty from witin. Being reminded that beauty is two-fold inside and out.
My prayer for today is that all the women in my life enjoy God's investement in them and that their beauty is seen through spiritual eyes. That we would not be tempted to compare each other but rejoice in our uniqueness and beauty. That we would not be tempted to feel insecure or a lack of self worth but know that God himself has appointed us as co-heirs and beauties of creation. So you lovely ladies rejoice in all that is feminine for today. (I'm deliberately today leaving out the boys not because I don't love ya or you don't have an equal part to play but just because the ladies where on my heart this morning.)

Fun and happiness

What is true happiness you may ask- well I think it is being around people who just get you. It doesn't matter to them how good you are at your job, what you look like, how rich you or how sorted you feel with Jesus. I was reminded of this nugget of truth by two truly lovely evenings with Sally, Liz Wall and Ellie. The former was a trip to the good ol' city of Liverpool to dine with Liz Wall (looking ever so glamourous) and Sally. There were many laughs and conversation about our boys. I think we did shock ourselves a little on how grown up we all are with our rather grown up relationships!!!! All good honest fun.
Then a house night out with the girls to celebrate a good year at 2 Burdith. There have been tears, laughter and many strange concoctions when it comes to dinner. Thanks Elle to introducing me to the wonders of seeds....:o)
And to top it off I have quit work, only one week left!!! Whooooo. And then I become housing assistant at Arawak Walton. They actually want me back.....
Oh that is after travelling to Ireland to try on the wedding dress...........................

I got the rock

Yep I now officially have an engagement ring. It's gorgeous if a little bigger then I thought it would be. So may have it slightly altered. But loving it. Shame though that I have a job where I can't really wear a ring. I'm constantly in and out of hot water and dirty coffee grinds. I would hate to damage it.
Other news I'm once again applying for jobs how much fun is that not. But it's scary to think that this could be the pattern for a few more years, constant change. I'm so sick of it. Anyways.
I do feel a bit like I have not moved on from student days at all still stuck in this limbo of what to do with my life and where is it all going. I really have to stop striving and just put my trust in the Lord as he will provide all my needs.
So today I'm going to chat to my manager and give in my notice and temp in housing agencies. May even have a temporary job at Arawak Walton for three months. I'm letting the coffee shop idea definitely die.

World cup

I actually watched a whole match last night- well apart from the quick dash to the chinese. italy v Ghana. was quite fun actually and I was suprisingly entertained. The best bit was though when they showed the goaly praying and commentated on it. Excellent- good man.
Not looking forward to work today at all. I've realised me and money- to be more precise cashing up-really don't work. I'm dreading these next few weeks when my manager goes away on honeymoon. I have to do all this paperwork which I have been shown twice and is rather overwhelming. I don't get all this margin etc stuff. Maybe a good thing if I don't open my own shop.

Answer to Prayers

So my lovely man has got himself a new contract. He was getting rather stressed and finding things hard not having much work coming through. So I've been praying like mad for him to get a contract and on Friday Ellie and I prayed and about two hours later he got a phone call for a contract that will last about a year. I'm ever so chuffed at him.
I;m not so chuffed that he lost his camera which has all the photos of us on our engagement weekend. Rather sad. So I thought I'd just post an old photo I have of him. And just to point out the phone he is on he has lost as well. Silly silly.....:o)

PS

So I wanted to post a Vera wang dress- but alas it ain't working- probably best just in case Craig still reads my blog. But oh my goodness it's no wonder she is the best designer in the world. Her dresses are so gorgeous.

Loving the weather

How gorgeous is Manchester in the sun. Finished a long shift in the perfect way by riding Kate. She was a bit lame but now is fit as a fiddle again. Glad that one didn't last too long.
Work was dead quiet because of the weather and the England match so not exactly looking forward to this afternoon. I'm also handing in my notice today because my leg and foot just hurt to much from having a job where I stand and walk about most of the day. Especially after a 9.5 hour shift.
Forgot to say that I went to my first dress shopping excursion on Wednesday night. It was terrific fun if a little strange. It was all about me......weird.
Today I'm working again. Really sucks I actually feel like going to a church. I think that is the way forward for me and my walk with God. Not saying that it is particularly bad at the moment. I have grown in love with Jesus again over the last year like I haven't known in about 4 before that ever since Morning Star. I think the problem was that I had changed and wanted something like MS overhear but it just doesn't exist so instead of moving on having grieved for that realisation I just let it drift. But now I'm fighting again. As my reading this morning said- We are co-heirs with christ. How cool is that?
Anyways enough ramblings.

Fraud, flights and tension

isn't it scary to think that people can have access to your credit card so easily these days. Not lost it or had it stolen and it's taken a couple of months and numerous phone calls with various departments to sort it all out. But I think it now has. Finally. Well done Alison Gibbson at Barclaycard for being a star and actually understanding my concerns. Great work.
Still have a high bill for paying for flights for the in laws. They have paid me back but I'm spending money that I don't have. argh tension tension tension.
Bring on girlie prayer next week.

It's been a while

To long has there been silence on this blog. Not that that much has happened really since I last blogged. Life pretty much exists of work, work, sleep and seeing Craig and my housemates briefly. It sucks. Every decision to see people hangs around which shifts I'm doing the next day.
I do have to say I had a wonderful time with Mr and Mrs Riley last week. Craig and I trapsed down to Macclesfield (suprisingly close) to have dinner with the beautiful people. Discovered that Richard likes House music in particularly trance!!! Dark horse. And whooo it means Craig and he have something in common. Always like that. So thanks Riley's you are truly amazing.
Apart from that I'm job hunting. After breaking down over the phone on Sunday after an 11 hour shift it is really serious. I'm in danger of getting to the point I got to last summer and no way am I risking my health again for a job. Especially one that doesn't really manage to cover my living expenses.

PS: The fish tank feels empty.